Network, Voice

[sparklingscarlet]

[Blaise isn't... entirely sure what to say. He feels a little nervous, which keeps him from showing his face. He takes a breath and puts his best foot forward.]

If anyone doesn't know already, my... relationship with Ryuzaki ended a little more than a week ago. For everyone that was worried about me, you guys who tried to talk me out of it... I'm sorry. You were right, and I wouldn't listen.

[His voice trembles a little as he struggles not to cry.]

I don't know what to say, or do, right now. If you're mad, I... I get it. [His voice goes more quiet for an instant.]...I kind of hope you won't be, but... [He speaks up again.] I... I don't know.... I feel really bad for not listening when I should have. Especially to Caesar and Misa. I messed up. I'm sorry.

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[evowhisperer]

He breaks the gaze on his own this time, unable to hold it. How did he get over him? Cesar remembers thinking of him when he and Lazarus kissed again for the first time afterwards. He remembers how frequently Ryuzaki popped into his mind after that, unwanted and impossible to disperse. He remembers him leaning in close to speak while deafening nightclub music rattled their bones, and how even then he'd still been caught like a charmed snake.

They aren't pleasant memories. He feels like a mouse trapped in tar.

As his answer, he lifts his coffee mug and points at it, lifting his eyebrows. Then he types out, 'Lots of work. Late nights. Keep busy. Don't think about him if you don't have to.'

It's not the greatest advice, but it's what he's got.

[sparklingscarlet]

As Blaise reads the answers, his expression becomes a little distressed. Most of the things he did before he met Ryuzaki were now places that he had been... and done.... things with Ryuzaki. He wanted to show the boy his whole world... It's a bitter sting in his heart. What on Earth could he possibly do to push Ryuzaki from his mind now?

"Uhm... wh-what sort of work do... you do...?" he asks in an effort to fight back any tears that might be welling up in his eyes.