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[Video] [Shepherd's Haven]

[Nux is very frequently shirtless, even when the weather's a little cold and nippy. Summer's coming in the Southern Hemisphere, so this is true even more often, but today, there's something really different about the familiar sight of his slender, well-muscled torso. It's also adorned with elaborate scarification that looks like car parts. He keeps touching and scratching at it, looking distracted and a little bit distraught.]

So, uh... people are remembering things, yeah? I was digging a hole for fenceposts and I was daydreaming, but... you know, during the day.

You... you know what I'm trying to say, right? I was there, but I wasn't there. I had this thing on my chest when I woke up, and I remembered the sort of... religion my Other had. He definitely wasn't Catholic. I think he worshiped cars, called it the Cult of the V8.

I mean, I like cars, but I don't think they're gods or anything like that.

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He's not food... he's bony. Bonier since you left, I think. But, uh, you're not a dog. There has to be something that helps.

I know this I'm not stupid but the difference between what I know and what I think against my own will is kinda broad right now.

I'm not a dog. [So he hates this so much.] The last time... the last time I felt at all sane or even alive was during the invasion when I was fighting. But I can't... I can't get that back.

[And he feels scared and hollow and angry all the time because of it.]

You were sane since then. You took care of him for weeks when he needed it. Months even, wasn't it? H-how can you go from that to wanting to...?

[He sounds confused, maybe a little hurt. But he's trying so hard to understand.]

Maybe we can spar. You don't wanna hurt me, so maybe that'll be safe.

I had Shou...

[Shou who could take a punch and give one just as viciously back. He had the war not too far from his back. But the longer time went on, the longer it was "peaceful" for everyone else... The more restless that demon became.]

I dunno, Nux. That sounds dangerous. I need to be able to let loose, if I did that with you I'd probably kill you. No offense, you're tough, but you're not stop a sword tough.

Shou, huh? You're, uh, you're... I guess it's easy to see why you'd miss him. For a lot of reasons. Sorry.

Yeah... [He was the only other non-human monster he had to talk to about all of this. And who understood it.

Then he up and vanished on him. The asshole.]

Anyway. Yeah.

Anyway what? You wanna punch something and blow off steam? You should! You should be mad about it! You guys were a thing and he just disappeared without saying anything?

It won't fix anything though will it? Just leave more broken. [Which is really frustrating because he would absolutely like to break things and has been, but it doesn't fix it and it doesn't really make him feel better. Just release a little stress. But it's not enough.

He gave Shou a lot. And now he just feels like it was a waste.]

It's holding it in that'll break you. It's holding you in that'll make you break Lazarus when you come back. If you save it of of course it'll explode.

That's why I can't come back yet.

[He doesn't have anywhere safe to let it out. If he does, someone will get hurt or killed. So he's staying far away from the people he loves because he doesn't want to hurt them.

It's remarkably lonely. Actually. Kind of sucks a lot.]

You could still explode, it'd just be a stranger and not someone you care about. You're no better off out there.

Then I'll avoid everyone.

[Hah. Easier said than done.]

That's not even a little bit possible and you know it Tony.

Yeah, well. I'll figure something out.

You'd better. Your other had to have done something.

Shit, that's right. That guy...

Do you remember anything?

Yes I remember things.

I mean about how he dealt with it.

Oh. I thought you were talking about my copy for a minute...

No. I don't remember how Dante dealt with it. He just... did. But I do know he felt the same way I did when fighting. Alive.

No, uh... the copies and the Others are d-different.

Do you know, uh, how or when he died?

Yeah, sorry. Getting words mixed up is all don't mind me.

Not a clue. Not even sure if he could die.

So... you might be looking at a life of going violent-crazy and not being able to die?

Well when you put it like that it just sounds depressing.

But yeah, it's pretty much that in a nutshell.

Edited 2015-10-26 21:56 (UTC)

If it's depressing you should call it depressing.

Not that I'm trying to depress you, or something...

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