Summer sighs, shaking her head faintly. A little bit of the fight comes back into her tone, even if she's still not really being her usual, abrasive self. "You know what your partner's like. I was created to be her shadow. Her darkness. What I want... might take some time to realize. When you start with anger and ambition and not a whole lot else, it takes..."
She trails off for a second. Talking to one of the originals about herself is weird. All the doppelgangers understand their nature without needing an explanation. Lily knows a little, but... she doesn't know, truly. "It takes a lot to overcome it even a little bit. I will never be able to stand in the light next to you. There isn't enough strength of personality in the world for that. It's not even doubt. It's just how we are.
"So I do want to be a better person, at least a little bit. But even beyond everything else, change is hard. Something bad happens and I just want to laugh and turn away. Someone's hurting in front of me and the urge is there to throw sand in their face. Having to fight that is more difficult than you can imagine." The desire to help, and the desire to harm... Summer knows, without a doubt, that she's a mirror of Winter in that respect. "But still, I want to try." A little more of her usual swagger comes into her voice, as she snorts. "If Little Miss Wisdom can rally an entire YouTube channel behind her, surely it can't be that hard."
Rose, though. Summer stops cold for a second, deflating a tiny bit again. "Rose is... a consideration, too. We like living dangerously, don't get me wrong. But when things get hard for you, you can just take a step back and hide in your cozy little getaway. We don't have that. Once you've made enemies like we have, you can never truly rest easily." Blood money, a beautiful villa in Paris, she thinks she's got the title to at least one private jet tucked away somewhere. The benefits are many, but the risks aren't anything to sneeze at.
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She trails off for a second. Talking to one of the originals about herself is weird. All the doppelgangers understand their nature without needing an explanation. Lily knows a little, but... she doesn't know, truly. "It takes a lot to overcome it even a little bit. I will never be able to stand in the light next to you. There isn't enough strength of personality in the world for that. It's not even doubt. It's just how we are.
"So I do want to be a better person, at least a little bit. But even beyond everything else, change is hard. Something bad happens and I just want to laugh and turn away. Someone's hurting in front of me and the urge is there to throw sand in their face. Having to fight that is more difficult than you can imagine." The desire to help, and the desire to harm... Summer knows, without a doubt, that she's a mirror of Winter in that respect. "But still, I want to try." A little more of her usual swagger comes into her voice, as she snorts. "If Little Miss Wisdom can rally an entire YouTube channel behind her, surely it can't be that hard."
Rose, though. Summer stops cold for a second, deflating a tiny bit again. "Rose is... a consideration, too. We like living dangerously, don't get me wrong. But when things get hard for you, you can just take a step back and hide in your cozy little getaway. We don't have that. Once you've made enemies like we have, you can never truly rest easily." Blood money, a beautiful villa in Paris, she thinks she's got the title to at least one private jet tucked away somewhere. The benefits are many, but the risks aren't anything to sneeze at.